old entries.

yesterday i decided to check out my xanga site, only because i haven't touched it since 2005.

i decided to start reading from the oldest post and work my way up. i couldn't believe how much i've changed since 2003. i was young, very naive, deeply obsessed, and way over myself to think that i was in love.

what was i to know? i was only 21. what kind of experiences did i go through before then? when you are at that age, you think you are "adult" enough to know what you are doing, when really, you don't. i'm 25 (going on 26 in a few days, ugh), and i don't think i have enough knowledge or experience to say, "i know what i'm doing." BUT... i do learn from my mistakes to tell myself, "i've done this before, let's or let's not do it again."

i believe my relationship with jason, thus this far, is a big improvement from whom i was in the past. i've learn to trust. i've learn to be patient. i've learn not to be THAT needy in a relationship. my life has become carefree and unstressful now than when i use to worry and pointing fingers to find someone to blame for my anger.

i'm not too sure what brought me to reading my old site, but i've decided to get rid of it because the past is the past. there's no need to go back to it when the memories that count the most are stored safely in my head.